Fin

I started this blog with intent to vent frustrations and find support amidst other awesome bloggers going through similar troubles. I was in search of healing. I have never been a writer before this and I never wanted to write. Just the thought of writing or reading a blog made me cringe. Thinking back, I … More Fin

The Beautiful Grind

This new life is starting to make sense. I’m beginning to find the rythym with classes and work. I do laundry and homework on Saturday and try to relax as much as possible on Sunday before going in to build boxes. Unfortunately that’s part of my job now.  I’m a bread man. I don’t own … More The Beautiful Grind

Where and when am I

It’s been a while since my last post, but I can’t dream of anyone twiddling their thumbs in anticipation of another pointless ramble. I will continue for the one or two who may find solace in another’s pain. Nothing you can imagine a certain place or time will look like ever captures that vision. I … More Where and when am I

Dear Home,

Five years ago we searched and searched for a house to call home. It took many months and we finally pushed my credit score high enough to buy. The hunt was finally over. With an inclined driveway and a strange but adaptable layout, I was ready to sign. My wife had one more house she … More Dear Home,

The real deal

She came to town yesterday. Probably to take care of something for the divorce or work. I wish she knew how knotted up my stomach is. I feel the same way I did when we discovered my mom got cancer. I know my marriage is over. I know I’m moving out. I’ve accepted it. I … More The real deal

The Right Reason

I may hold the current record for the longest attempt at graduating with an associate’s degree. I enrolled in 2001 with the expectation of pursuing a bachelor’s in architecture. I remember meeting with an advisor and I felt hopelessly out of place. I didn’t think I was smart enough to pass all of the math … More The Right Reason

Angry

WARNING! WARNING! This message is angry. The past few days have really started stirring something in my heart that I’m not accustomed to. My wife texted me that she decided to hire a lawyer just to take care of the paperwork in our upcoming divorce. This was a legitimate reason to contact me and I … More Angry

Good days ahead

Well folks, I think it’s finally starting. I woke up the same today feeling about 40% but something happened. My wife texted me and I did NOT hyperventilate, freak out, or feel hopeless. The reason? God is with me my friends. I have accepted what will be and albeit I don’t like it, God is … More Good days ahead